So, my friend Paula often says to look for a sign from a loved one after they depart this world. I think I was feeling so guilty about being so far away from my Mom during most of her illness that I refused to see it after she passed away last year. I don't know...maybe I'm just a little slow on the uptake. LOL If you read Paula's journal, you know she often has unexpected visitors after hers or a friend's furbaby passes away. As if the departing soul leads a stray or animal in need to Paula for help before it crosses over. This happened the next morning after Bubby left us. Paula was led to three stray kittens! Truly amazing.
As my last entry said, this past Friday, we had to help our furbaby Bubby leave this world for the next. It was the hardest decision we ever had to make, but we had no choice. The cancer had taken over most of his liver and he would have only continued to suffer. There was no hope for him and he had already deteriorated so much, it broke my heart every time he tried to walk, or I looked into his sad little eyes. Even now, tears stream down my face as I write this. Gawd, it's amazing how attached one can be to their pets... But, I digress.
Last night was a most sleepless night. Not so unusual for me. I fell asleep around midnight only to awaken at 3am. I just could not get back to sleep. Then, at 6:30 am as he does every morning, Hubby brought our other two furbabies into the bedroom and helped them up onto the bed to say goodmorning to me as he said his goodbyes. After he left, I slammed into a deep sleep. Just before my alarm went off, I was dreaming of my mom. She was lying on her couch, giggling like a school girl, while Bubby (now a puppy again), was busilly covering her face with puppy slobber while he licked her face. Mom had never met Bubby as a puppy, so I know this wasn't a memory.
Mom was healthy, happy, and full of life again...and so was Bubby! I miss them both so much my heart aches, but I know they're doing fine and now they have each other again.